King of Scars by Leigh Bardugo

Gosh I love Nikolai. He owns me.
Zoya. Baby. I love you.
Backstories. I can't.
I want to get behind a certain ship...but I can't...like...maybe it's because I'm still hung up on an old ship...
Ummm. no.. my child (who shall not be named) deserved better. I am and will continue to be in denial. 
Someone send help.
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